Changing Operating Systems

by SharonH on 05/19/2012

Chaco Canyon Thresholds

Everything in life is both reality and a symbol (at least inside my version of what defines reality)—meaning that this very persistent and tangible reality is also subject to dream interpretation. “Row, row, row your boat….”  and all that.

So when I made the decision this week to get a Mac after decades of working on a PC and started investigating the new operating system (OS) I will have to learn, I also started shifting my personal OS, whether by inference, coincidence, synchronicity or design. Mentally and emotionally, I am just not thinking and feeling the way I was just a short time ago.

Maybe it’s because I just celebrated a significant birthday—but, frankly, I don’t think it’s that. Maybe it’s because I visited the sacred site of Chaco Canyon in New Mexico a couple of weeks ago and somehow was imbued with its spirit. Certainly the ancient Pueblan culture understood the importance of transitions as evidenced by this photo of their architecture. (Interestingly, I found that the same kind of doorways through doorways through doorways was a common aspect in old Chinese architecture as well when I visited there some years ago).

So, as I make a transition from one OS to another, I find that everything seems a bit different, as if I’ve passed through some kind of threshold into an unfamiliar domain.

That brings me in a roundabout way back to the unfamiliar domain of the MAC operating system. To give some background on an OS—it is a unique type of computer program that is, essentially and importantly, a syntactic language that completely confines (delineates, constrains, defines, and makes possible) all the programs that can run on a particular computer. Its purpose is to store and retrieve information and is programmed by the specific syntactic computer language to run hardware systems that interpret that language and in turn run the OS that runs the software. To put it in human terms—my OS runs my bio-identity for itself (physiology, chemistry, biology, neurology and lower personality that identifies itself only with the body) and my bio-identity runs my OS which runs everything else.

My OS—the way I’ve represented the world to myself (or the ‘language’ of my reality) has filtered my experiences and constructed my neurology/neurophysiology (how the brain is structured and how it functions), my perceptions of reality, my attitudes, beliefs, habits, et.

This is so because an OS is a language, and languages conform to rules. The rules are unique to the specific language.

According to an article that appeared in the New York Times, “…..in the last few years, new research has revealed that when we learn our mother tongue, we do after all acquire certain habits of thought that shape our experience in significant and often surprising ways……if different languages influence our minds in different ways, this is not because of what our language allows us to think but rather because of what it habitually obliges us to think about….it forces you to be attentive to certain details in the world and to certain aspects of experience that speakers of other languages may not be required to think about all the time. And since such habits of speech are cultivated from the earliest age, it is only natural that they can settle into habits of mind that go beyond language itself, affecting your experiences, perceptions, associations, feelings, memories and orientation in the world…..”

The most striking evidence cited in the article is language’s affect on “the orientation of the world around us.” The article continues to say that, “…..we even perceive colors through the lens of our mother tongue,” and that, “As strange as it may sound, our experience of a Chagall painting actually depends to some extent on whether our language has a word for blue.”

There’s much to be said for learning other languages. They do give us new windows (or should I say doorways) into perceiving the world in new ways. Think of it this way. You are seated along with 359 other people on a circle (one person for each degree). You have been sitting in the same spot for your entire life. Then, one day, you are asked to shift over to another spot. Even if it’s only by one degree, your view of reality is different from the new location. That awakens you to the possibility that every degree of the circle has a different perspective. You may even be inspired to lookr outward from the circle.

Plato presents this idea in the Allegory of the Cave in which he describes people living, chained since birth, deep within a cave. They can only look straight ahead see only shadows projected on the wall by people and objects in front of a fire behind the prisoners. The shadows are the prisoners’ only view of ‘reality’. One prisoner becomes free, able finally to see the real objects of the world; and “….when the prisoner’s eyes have fully adjusted to the brightness, he lifts his sights toward the heavens and looks at the sun. He understands that the sun is the cause of everything he sees around him—of the light, of his capacity for sight, of the existence of flowers, trees, and all other objects.”

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By willingly letting go of my habitual interpretation of the world—of the conscious and subconscious representations I make of it to myself—and allowing myself to be ‘blinded by the light’ (at least temporarily), I open myself to the possibility of an awareness of something far greater than I have ever known. So bring on the new OS. I’m ready to learn.

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Self-Forgiveness

by SharonH on 05/14/2012

“To understand everything is to forgive everything.”

– Latin saying

Most, if not all, religions suggest forgiveness as a curative for anger, hatred and other long-held negative emotions that eventually harm our physical, mental and spiritual health. Forgiveness, therefore, is a gift of healing that we give ourselves and is not really about the “offender”.  It is not about pardoning; it is about inner healing. We cannot achieve inner peace without the practice of forgiveness

 “Holding on to anger is like grasping a hot coal with the intent of throwing it at someone else but you are the one who gets burned” — The Buddha

Forgiveness for those without a spiritual outlook can be viewed, alternatively, as a psychological necessity. (http://www.apa.org/international/resources/forgiveness.pdf)

The stress that builds from little resentments towards those that create “hassles”—the irksome driver, the inefficient server, the petty bureaucrat—can lead to chronic illness that a simple dose of forgiveness can quickly cure.

 “Social scientists are beginning to recognize the powerful practical and therapeutic benefits that forgiveness offers in a broken and isolated world.”

— Katheryn Rhodes Meek

 Forgiveness cannot be forced. It is either the natural possession (emotion) of a developed soul or a practiced discipline (behavior). When someone has committed violence, cruelty, a crime or atrocity against us or mistreated us, or visited injustice upon us, or even a created a petty annoyance, it is natural to be not only offended by the offender, but to feel anywhere from exasperated to wounded to infuriated to crushed to annihilated, resulting in a range of feelings such as resentment, anger, fear and hatred.

It is unhealthy to repress or suppress such feelings. They can run a natural course and expire. For some people they never expire. For those who achieve forgiveness, it is an end product of a long process. This is probably normal and necessary, unless one is already an evolved human or a saint in whom forgiveness is a lifelong attitude. Forgiveness is not easy, but it can be accomplished, sometimes over the long course of time, sometimes instantaneously.

Nelson Mandela, after 27 years of imprisonment, taught forgiveness and established a philosophy and political practice of unity with those who persecuted and imprisoned him.

 Resentment is like a glass of poison that a man drinks; then he sits down and waits for his enemy to die. —Nelson Mandela

 Ghandi has been reported to have said “Ram-Ram” (the equivalent of “God-God” in English) at the moment that he was murdered. This was the submission of a saint to the will of the Creator, akin to Jesus on the cross uttering, “Thy will be done.”

“….the weak can never forgive. Forgiveness is an attribute of the strong.” — Mahatma Ghandi

 It is also possible to find many instances of individuals and groups forgiving great injustices and great injuries; for example mothers who forgive the murderers of their sons; and about six years ago when an Amish community—where forgiveness is a way of life—immediately forgave the man who murdered five of their young women and injured six others.

Having witnessed many people find the strength to forgive others, I remain astounded by how difficult it is for many to forgive themselves. I believe this is a mistaken or distorted sense of strength or righteousness (read: ‘false ego’) that says somehow I am better (or should be better) than everyone else; and, therefore, “I am not worthy of forgiveness.” This seems a backwards way of saying, “I am above forgiveness.”

There is a tremendous strength in admitting that I am faulty; that I—as a possessor of a human soul—am capable of the same annoying behaviors, mistakes, failings, weaknesses, mistreatments and even atrocities that have been committed by others. I may not choose to give the worst of these capacities safe harbor within me, but that is not to say that they are not within my potential.

This is also not to say that I am “sinful”; instead this says that I am fully human—free to make choices, prone to the inevitable mistakes and errors—that are inherent in the gift of freedom. In freedom lies the ability to do wrong, to be wrong, to have a shadow self.

Acknowledging and forgiving the shadow self unleashes its tremendous forces and makes those forces accessible for transformation and transmutation. Ironically, admitting to being weak is strong.

 “We are all full of weakness and errors; let us mutually pardon each other our follies.” —Voltaire

 True forgiveness of others can only be achieved when one forgives oneself and vice versa. This human experience is messy. We need to be kind, empathetic and compassionate to our developing selves and to others if we are ever to evolve into psychological and spiritual wholeness.

 It is very easy to forgive others their mistakes; it takes more grit and gumption to forgive them for having witnessed your own.

—Jessamyn West

 

“Love yourself—accept yourself—forgive yourself—and be good to yourself, because without you the rest of us are without a source of many wonderful things.” —Leo F. Buscaglia

May we give mercy to ourselves and others and may mercy be showered down upon us.

 

 

 

 

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A Sign

by SharonH on 04/24/2012

Many people look for signs. We don’t often find them when we want them. But sometimes they can be as obvious as “the writing on the wall.” Of course, I wasn’t yet aware that I had been given a sign until the doorbell rang and my client arrived laughing uproariously. This in itself was a good sign.

She had scheduled the appointment the night before in something of a state (and not a particularly good one). Seems that meanwhile, over night, the city had taken upon itself the business of “signage”. There, in front of the path to my home, was my own personal shingle and my client’s personal prediction.

It was just what she was hoping for.

 

 

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Separation or Unity

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Forgiveness

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SILENCE: The Angel of Peace

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